I understand you're scared, I would be too, but killing yourself over mess ups that go on is waaaay too far, especially over a video game. In life, we face challenges, there's no way around it. It is all about going through the hardships and coming out stronger on the other side. You Minecraft situation is one of the many trials ahead to learn, and to endure, and to become stronger. I'm sorry that all happened to you, but it is nothing to get suicidal over. It's time to rest, and trust in God to guide you further more, and even get your stuff back. Bless.
CalamityGanon
I really hope things get better.