(Don't worry, it will be temporary, I think.)

[For those who were mentioned, you can go down to where I make the mentions :3]

Before continuing with a very long message, I want to say three things.

1-

I'm really grateful to @bl00dy-seraphim617, who apparently loved the drawing so much that she decided to Featured it at Tuesday Takeover :3! (Sending hugs, thanks. When I was drawing this, I truly thought it would be one of the best drawings I've ever done. It's a shame it wasn't released on Frontpage.)

2-

Thanks to the Featured on Tuesday Takeover, I started to grow more, which means we're almost at 70 Fans! (For which I'm kind of grateful, since, while some were through dirty tricks, the rest came with hard work and dedication, no F4F = Follow 4 Follow!)

3-

I really appreciate the people who are drawing me birthday pictures. I'm really feeling very unmotivated about what that day would be like (because I consider it something ordinary, nothing special, because of everything I suffered and continue to suffer, it's no longer something special, just like New Year's or Christmas).

Now, with the message in the title:

Sometimes, it's better to take some time, whether for mental health, time, or lack of motivation, mine being the former.

Lately, I've been feeling like a total mess, unconsciously envying others, especially because I'm having a problem with three people (who, I don't mind telling you their names, are ElRandomGMD, VixyOnline, and Guardian7Uremake, which, I hate the first two). It's not a big deal, really. Although I was bothering and annoying the first person without realizing it, I've already figured out the reasons why.

Furthermore, I'm further demotivated by the fact that some of my fans are theirs, and therefore, if something happens, they stop following me. I don't mind that much, but if it affects me in the future (whether I do a collaboration, start a conversation or become friends with someone, etc.), especially if they are Ghost Fans (They just follow me and that's it, and they don't see my drawings, which have had a drop in popularity, excluding the ONM drawing).

So I've decided to stay away from Newgrounds, and a bit from Discord, to be able to enjoy the three weeks of vacation I have, so I can rebuild my life (I have anxiety, I can have moments of depression, and I'm also susceptible to emotional dependency, especially if a person starts a conversation with someone I hate, which affects me a lot. I also get stressed easily, I get daily headaches, horrible low self-esteem, and obviously, thoughts of ending my life), I know that several people don't It won't matter, given what I've said, but there's probably a tiny part of it that cares about what's happening to me.

I've been dealing with that suffering since 2022-2023 (Ah, my perfection also started to suffer in 2021, I think), which hasn't let me sleep peacefully. It wasn't until this year that my parents got serious about taking me to a psychologist. I still have to go, but let's hope to heal everything I wanted to heal, which never healed in all this time.

I'm so grateful to the people who've followed my journey so far, who liked the drawings I'm making (which I'll continue to do. I'll be improving my drawing techniques, possibly making moving drawings, but I won't be posting them on Newgrounds, but possibly on DeviantArt, so keep an eye on my DeviantArt!)

Let me make this clear: I'll be inactive until June 19th. I don't know how long, possibly until the holidays are over, or later. I have no idea. For now, I'll be interacting more with the community, because tomorrow I'll be shutting down.

So, as I go, I want to leave a nice message for several of you (in the original language):

@choconyan - 最初に信頼できる人の一人になってくれてありがとう。本当に感謝しています。そして、どんな形でも私をサポートしてくれて、孤独な私に寄り添ってくれたことにも感謝しています。:3 (あなたが私をフォロー解除したのも無理はないですね :C, まあ、大丈夫だよ、結局私たちはまだ友達だよ :3)

@GeeGuy - Agradeço por você ser uma das poucas e também a primeira pessoa em quem eu pude confiar, por tentar me apoiar, me dar conselhos e também tentar me fazer feliz de todas as maneiras possíveis. Agradeço muito :3

@Triple-G - I really appreciate the trust and faith you had in me by scouting me on the Art Portal. I was very happy knowing I was at a good level of quality, and that I could continue even more. Thank you so much :3

@CaioAdriel - Claro, continuaremos conversando no Discord! Agradeço muito como você está me ajudando com conselhos e suas próprias experiências para que eu possa seguir em frente sem sofrimento! Além disso, você também me deu companhia onde eu mais precisava. Muito obrigada :3

@Camii10 - Aunque tenga mis diferencias, mis defectos, y, pueda resultarte fastidioso o insoportable, tienes mucha paciencia conmigo, tratas de ayudarme, quieres si o si brindarme compañia, y se ve el amor y cariño que me tienes, te amu muchisimo hermanita >3<, que ojala sigamos juntas por muchisisimo tiempo :333

@LizGuy74, @StitchMiss, @MOHD5aqer, @draininkiss - I really appreciate you wanting to enter the ONM Collab for 20 years! Come on! Next year it might be for Kuru Kuru Shuffle, or for Kuromi's Pretty Journey :3! Who knows? Also for liking the art I do :3 (Especially Lizguy74 who commented on several works of art, great man!)

@KungFuCarafu - Thank you again for the fact that you loved the drawing I made of you XD (one of the best drawings I've done, and possibly the era where I do moving drawings >:3), and well, to take advantage of the fact that we can share things in common ;3, I hope we can share a beautiful friendship, because these are one of the very few times where I don't send a request or try to start a conversation, I really appreciate it. I like your series, hopefully at some point I can be a voice actor for your project (And hopefully for dubbing too, it would be incredible to dub the series!)

@ALunaticBoi - On Discord doing the Manga XD, also, to thank you for wanting to be part of the EMD project! I know this project will be at the top of all mangas >:D :eyes::eyes:

And a thank you to the fans who like the content I make :D, I appreciate you >3<

And that's it! I really put in the effort to make this ULTRA LONG message, and hopefully, in the future, we'll all meet again, with new skills acquired (I'll be improving my music composition, also adding vocals, and making music in the Odetari style, practicing animation, and of course, practicing programming and drawing. Programming will be the major I'll pursue in college).

So, well, my beautiful and lovely people, I'll see you in two days on my 15th birthday, baiiiii!

(I'm writing this while kicking myself while listening to "What's up, People!?" and "Zetsubou Billy," some great songs from the final chapters of Death Note!)

(me in my 15th birthday dress haha~)